“So I find this law at work; When I want to do good, evil is right there with me. For in my inner being I delight in God’s law; but I see another law work in the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a PRISONER of the law of sin at work within my members. What a wretched person I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death?” Romans 7:21
Paul knew what he was talking about in this passage, he describes exactly how I feel, like a prisoner of my own flesh, because I’m constantly repeating the same sin over and over and over again and I ask for forgiveness and then I do it again. I’m struggling so hard to resist but satan gets me once again. I wonder to myself is God going to forgive me this time? surely his not after I have committed this sin trillions of times, Im beginning to feel like filth, dirt because I keep hurting my father over and over. I thought I was a new person but I’m a new person with the same bad habits. and only I can change that, but lately it has become harder than I thought and satan knows how to get me when im vulnerable. but I read the next passage of romans ch 8 and pauls exclaims,
“The spirit you received does not make you slaves, so that you live in fear again; rather, the Spirit you received brought about your adoption to sonship. And by him we cry, “Abba, Father.” The Spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are God’s children. Now if we are children, then we are heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, If indeed we share in his sufferings in order that we may also share in his glory.” Roman 8:15-17
Even though I’m struggling with sin, I know others are too. he never said it was going to be easy, but all great things never are. It just becomes frustrating when I give in without a fight. Life is too fleeting to live in fear and sin, when I have my father right here beside me holding out his hands to pick me up!
